Who Am I – By “Searching4Wisdom”

My son, if you will receive my words
And treasure my commandments within you,
Make your ear attentive to wisdom,
Incline your heart to understanding;
For if you cry for discernment,
Lift your voice for understanding;
If you seek her as silver
And search for her as for hidden treasures;
Then you will discern the fear of the Lord
And discover the knowledge of God.
For the Lord gives wisdom;
From His mouth come knowledge and understanding.


The best way to describe me is as a seeker of Him.  There are two primary reasons which I have currently chosen not to identify myself by name: 

  1. I have been working in one closed country, seeking to impact a neighboring even more closed country.  If I use my name in this blog it can be dangerous to those with whom I am connected.  It is better that remain anonymous.
  2. I currently want to guard against any personal motives to become known or “famous”.

But, if the Lord tells me otherwise I will follow Him in revealing myself.  Known or unknown does not make much difference to me – what counts is that others can benefit from the lessons He is taking me through.


A little more background, if you’re interested……  I have

  1. Worked in business for an extended period
  2. Been commended as a missionary by my local body, who values “accurately handling the word of truth” (2 Timothy 2:15) over academic credentials
  3. A love for God’s Word (Psalm 1, Joshua 1:8, Psalm 119, Jeremiah 15:16, etc)
  4. A strong interest in understanding the “why’s” rather than just the “what’s”
  5. A drive to view things from the top down – starting with the existence and nature of God, and moving from there to the “doctrines of grace”
  6. Been through several schools of “hard knocks”, as crucibles in which to learn more of Him and His ways
  7. A “high” view of scripture and a core theology in sync with the Westminster Confession.
  8. A desire to be truly faithful to His Word in what I write here
  9. Had my share of encounters with those with insolent pride, as well as personal battles within.  It drove me to see what He says about it, and these writings are simply a venue to record my search.
  10. Consider myself somewhat of a recovering narcissist, with narcissistic family roots.
  11. Am just now learning to walk by grace through faith, instead of works, after a long time of being a Christian.


And, as I write in this forum, I am constantly looking at my own heart to see the pride within.


PS – Randy Alcorn’s blog post on the “The Problem of Plagiarizing by Pastors and Christian Leaders” is a good representation of what I aspire to. If you ever notice that I have compromised integrity by not providing proper attribution for content, please let me know.